The phone dropped from my trembling hand. The urge to cry was strong, I tried but I couldn’t.
The memories were turning crimson and in a matter of seconds they had completely burnt out. It was all over...just like that!
All those years meant nothing suddenly...I tried to gather all those special happy memories...random moments...it seemed like a bootless exercise...I persisted but couldn’t find a single one...not one.
This couldn’t be true,this nightmare was going to end when I woke up.
It has always been an obsession with me-I have a back-up of everything from random personal emails to the weirdest chat conversation...and all those photographs! Imagine the irony of the wipe out of all those memories closest to my heart!
I couldn’t believe it could happen to me. I'm sure my mind was playing games...Maybe it was the stress at work. Maybe it was everything together. Maybe it was nothing!
The idea seemed eerily familiar,like a déjà vu...it was that movie...what was the name again?
I had watched it on the strong recommendation of a colleague...yes that was it-eternal sunshine of the spotless mind...the movie had freaked me out of my wits but I thought it would be so surreal yet life changing if everyone had the right to get rid of all those rotten memories of those further rotten men who never deserved us in the first place!(as any well wisher would put it.)
Inside my head was a mocking voice saying, careful what you wish for! I was sure that was the devil himself talking.
I was beginning to freak out by now..it couldn’t be true,it couldn’t be happening to me!
I logically reasoned to myself that these things don’t happen in a real world.
Am I beginning to lose my mind? I needed to talk to someone. I couldn’t decide who...and where could I start without sounding like a lunatic?
Left with no choice I lay abed and last remember staring at the dusty ceiling endlessly while the TV that blared in the background seemed strangely therapeutic.
I don’t know when I fell asleep but when I woke up the next day all that remained was a strange inveterate pain...
